windsnocturne: (Mikage/Mamiya)
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Title: elusive miracle
Fandom: Revolutionary Girl Utena (manga-verse)
Pairing/Characters: Mikage/Mamiya
Genre: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Spoilers, Student/Teacher relations, obsession


Summary: Mamiya sleeps. Mikage thinks. Mamiya is dying. Mikage angsts. It's all very sad.




He sleeps most of the time these days. His illness is stagnant, neither worsening nor healing. The medicines he used to take every day no longer have any effect, rest is the only cure. He protests weakly that he isn't tired, often times I'll catch him coming to my side late at night. He only makes it as far as the sofa before he collapses and I help him back to bed.

Every day I search for a miracle and every day I come closer, but to no avail. He's never been a hardy one, always ill in some way or another, but I remember him being better than this. Breath in his lungs, color in his face, light in his eyes. One day it started to fade, I don't remember when...neither of us remember too much of the past. Only each other.

He stirs in his sleep, then suddenly gasps my name and gropes for my hands. I stroke his hair and he awakens, coughing and panting; I draw him to me, burying my face in his hair. He's shaking even though it's warm in here.

"I don't want to die," he whispers. He sounds as helpless as I feel. "Please, Mikage, I..."

My heart catches in my throat as he goes still for a moment; only when I feel his back move with his shallow breathing do I sigh with relief. My Mamiya, always so close to death yet so near me. A miracle keeps slipping through my fingers, no matter how far I think I've come. His arms lock around my chest and I kiss his hair, closing my eyes.

"I won't let you," I murmur, "I'll find a cure for you, Mamiya. No matter what, I'll fight God himself to keep you by my side."

God...Dios. The Rose Bride. Yes, of course, why didn't I see it sooner? The Rose Bride will grant us eternity! Mamiya will live and be healthy, we'll live forever!

I must challenge Utena Tenjou and kill the Rose Bride, I decide. With them out of the picture, Mamiya will be my Rose Bride. Young, healthy, by my side for eternity. Even if all of Ohtori and the world burn around us, we'll remain.

You're all that matters, Mamiya.

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Date: 2016-02-03 11:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] candledance.wordpress.com
This is a really nice prologue to the appearance of Mikage and Mamiya in the manga - the same tone of protectiveness, despair, and (very understandable!) angst. I know this ficlet is a few years old, but I thought I'd write to tell you that I liked it, anyway! And to make one suggestion: that Mamiya might plead saying "Souji" rather than "Mikage", since that's what he called him in the manga? Anyway, thank you for sharing this. :)

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Date: 2016-02-04 02:08 am (UTC)
sarajayechan: Saitovision > Ikuharavision for this pairing. end of story. (Mikage/Mamiya)
From: [personal profile] sarajayechan
*checks manga* ...you're right, he does. :o Will need to fix that then. Thanks for pointing it out, and thanks for your lovely comment! I'm glad you enjoyed it!

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Date: 2016-02-04 02:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] candledance.wordpress.com
I just read the manga for the first time yesterday, and there's your pretty icon, combining the two images that almost made me cry! The ghost embrace was *gutting* - but beautiful all the same.

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